tell me why...

Why do I do this to myself? Continually? I know what the consequence will be, but does that stop me, NO! I continue to read read read way into the wee late hours of the night, or actually, officially, the early hours of the next morning only to be SO tired the next day I am almost completely worthless as a human being, much less a mother and so the question remains... why do I continue to do this behavior? Now, it's not every night, not even once a week, but once every few months I get on a kick and just get into a book and READ knowing I will regret this decision the next day, but still, I do not change! AAHHHHHHHHHHH.... today is the longest day, I have YW's tonight and I am so freaking tired...................................